How you can love somebody that you haven’t even meet? It’s day four of maternity leave and I am so emotionally ready to meet you that I cry and long to see your face. I want to be able to hold you in my arms, to be able to enjoy just being with you. It’s okay Savannah, you can come. We are ready for you. Your father and I are so excited to see you. God grant us the strength and patience to be able to make it through this time of waiting for her arrival. I am so anxious to meet you that I daydream about me and your father holding you in our arms to see your smile, sitting on our front porch feeling the cool breeze brush my hair, feeling you move. It makes me thank God for this glorious afternoon with the sun shining. It makes me smile in anticipation of playing with you right here on our front yard, right here in the green grass of this august day.
See you soon…
Ok. So it’s been a really long time since I’ve written to you. Sorry about that. You’ve gotten a lot bigger and a lot more active since we last talked. You’re mom likes to watch your movements. She gets a real charge out of it. Generally speaking she has had an easy time of it all so far, compared to others we’ve heard about and talked to. Your mom is pretty tall, so she has a little more room for you to move around and grow.
As I write this there are 7 weeks left until your due date. You’re room is almost done. We’ve actually spent more time rebuilding the bathroom from scratch than we have on your room. Someday we’ll show you some before and after pictures and I think you’ll agree that it was the right way to go. Family and friends have been pretty generous in the stuff they’ve given us for you. The first few months of your life will be much easier because of them. We thank God all the time for that. Remind me to tell you all about all of it and all of them. It’s important to remember things like that.
I find myself noticing dads with their daughters lately. I imagine that it’s me and you. Kinda cheesy I know, but that’s where I’m at right now. People often tell me about how life is going to change. My first thought is, yeah. That’s the point. I’m totally looking forward to it. I’ve spent most of my life thinking about myself. Making the world a better place for my daughter is something I look forward to very strongly. Sure, it’ll be a challenge and we’ll have tough times. There will be lots of “dad” moments, but honestly I’m looking forward to all that too.
Maybe I’m crazy, but I’m betting there are other dads out there that know what I mean.
Until next time, hopefully it won’t be so long.
This past weekend we started our bathroom remodel which was to say interesting. A bit stressful and little uncomfortable due to the hard as rock beds at the cheap hotel that we got for a couple days. Due to the fact that my body is always changing it was interesting trying to get comfortable. Lets just say I got creative with the extra bedding. But we made it through. What’s important is the fact that we have a working shower and toilet Yeah!!!!! Hunger. That is what I am feeling now all the time. A cute growing belly and the need to eat is quite an urgency. mmmmmm chicken pot pie mom made over the weekend. Enjoying the need to eat whenever noodle says.
I love being pregnant now that I am past the nausea stage. Lots of amazing and wonderful feelings. So many changes, physical and emotional. Being that this is my first time, I just never know what each day will bring. One day I have nausea, the next I am having back pain. I have to admit when we first found out, it just didn’t feel real even though I was having all the normal symptoms fatigue, nausea, etc. When we saw the first ultrasound (the blob), even though we couldn’t see much detail, we knew the baby was there.
The next appointment I saw the real ultrasound with much more detail and it was awesome to see. Today I feel really good, no back pain and I have weekend off. Yeah! I went out to dinner with some friends from work and had great food. I’m feeling pretty full and pretty good. I am just enjoying each day and looking forward to what each day will bring and each phase of this great experience with my wonderful husband.
Found out last night that I’m going to be a Dad. Pretty cool stuff. It’s about as official as a home pregnancy test can be. Which is is pretty accurate according to the doc. She goes in this week for a blood test to confirm things. I find myself planning long term all of a sudden and thought maybe it’s time to get some thoughts down on paper. So to speak.
How do I feel? Totally geeked. We’ve been planning and praying for this for a while. As usual, God does things on his time table not mine. All part of that long term lesson on patience he’s got me on.
I do worry about being a “old” dad though. Time to get serious about getting into shape. I need to be able to kick his/her butt in backyard football when he/she is a teenager. And yes, if we have a girl she’s going to learn to play football. Her mom will take care of the girl stuff. No gender stereotypes in my house. 🙂
Want to know the crazy part? I keep wondering when I should be passing out cigars. Is it now or when the baby is born? I’m thinking of doing it now. Be more fun that way.
Now I just have to keep all this a secret until Christmas when we spring it on everyone. Yeah, posting it all on the internet was a good idea. 🙂 Nobody reads this anyway, right?