There are about a thousand decisions that need to be made at some point. I guess I knew there would be, but my mind keeps finding new ones each time we figure something out.
At some point in time the Mrs wants to do photography full time. She’s good at it so it makes total sense and I totally support the idea. The question is when can we handle that and how do we transition? Daycare is the biggest thing we have to deal with no matter what. If she continues working we have to pay for it and if she doesn’t we have to adjust our budget to deal with the loss of her income until her business gets going. Both of those decisions affect our ability to fund her business they way we would like. I could write all day about the various scenarios that come to mind, but that would take all day and probably wouldn’t accomplish much. For now I keep notes on the trusty iPad so I don’t forget anything. I’m bad about that sometimes.
The truth is that God will provide answers to my questions and will provide the things we need going forward. Those two things may not end up having anything to do with each other. Not to mention that it probably won’t happen as quickly as I’d like, but that’s just another part of the life long lesson on patience God has me on. But God will provide, I have no doubt about that. Sometimes I just wonder if all of the scenarios that come to my mind are part of God’s plan to help the situation or is me worrying more than I should…
Ok, so technically the journey began a few weeks ago, but that’s the only title I could think of. I’m sure future titles will be just as cheesy so don’t worry. As I write this we don’t know if the baby will be a boy or a girl. We are actually planning on waiting until he/she is born to find out. I think I’ve decided to continue putting thoughts about being a first time dad into this blog as I have them. Calling it “writing” is bit of a stretch. So, thoughts works for me.
I keep thinking of an episode of star trek the next generation where Wesley reaches a certain age and gets a message from his dad made when he was born. Or something like that. The dad had planned to make a bunch of them over the years so Wesley would know who he was then and not just the old guy he meets later, but died before he could. Now I’m not planning on dying early, but the idea of making messages (or blog posts in this case) along this journey of mine appeals to me.
The bummer part is that bringing up the star trek reference might label me a “trekker” for all time. In actuality I’m much more of a Star Wars geek. So there it is just to set the record straight. Although, I’ve always tried to avoid the trappings of the word geek (or nerd or whatever), but working on computers and technology for a living kind of thrusts that on you. I’m much more interesting than that.
Anyway, hopefully this will be a fun journey and an interesting read. At least for our future son or daughter.
Found out last night that I’m going to be a Dad. Pretty cool stuff. It’s about as official as a home pregnancy test can be. Which is is pretty accurate according to the doc. She goes in this week for a blood test to confirm things. I find myself planning long term all of a sudden and thought maybe it’s time to get some thoughts down on paper. So to speak.
How do I feel? Totally geeked. We’ve been planning and praying for this for a while. As usual, God does things on his time table not mine. All part of that long term lesson on patience he’s got me on.
I do worry about being a “old” dad though. Time to get serious about getting into shape. I need to be able to kick his/her butt in backyard football when he/she is a teenager. And yes, if we have a girl she’s going to learn to play football. Her mom will take care of the girl stuff. No gender stereotypes in my house. 🙂
Want to know the crazy part? I keep wondering when I should be passing out cigars. Is it now or when the baby is born? I’m thinking of doing it now. Be more fun that way.
Now I just have to keep all this a secret until Christmas when we spring it on everyone. Yeah, posting it all on the internet was a good idea. 🙂 Nobody reads this anyway, right?